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Name: Nicholas
Location: KeLLer, Texas, United States
Birthday: 10/18/1985
Gender: Male
Interests: Um...opera, Renée Fleming, music, hah, see a theme?? Um...and OMG Josh Hartnett, UGH...what a hottie....um...........I love doing things talking to new people.....um....and I really love poetry too...that's about it, hah...oh, and I'm a very religious person I love God (don't ask...hah)
Expertise: I think my best skill is being fun, and then singing, and then my presentation and taste (eg, fashion, cooking, throwing parties, etc.)
Occupation: Student
Message: message me
AIM:  lyricalfioritura
MSN: irbsadillards
Member Since:
4/6/2005
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| ugh
i hate boys
i hate life
i hate distances
i hate dallas
i hate houston
i hate texas
i hate bush
when i move back to houston i'm going to start doing crack, so maybe i can be at least thin and have one thing i can look forward too...besides, who really cares anyway?
i hate thinking
i hate living
i hate being a moral christian
i hate having to be right
i hate having a good personality
i hate being fat
i hate being ugly
i hate feeling inferior to every person i know
i hate feeling like i have to be perfect so that there is something good about me
i hate superficial people
i hate gay people
i hate being alone
i hate haters
i hate double standards
i hate annoying people
i hate people who can't understand, "FUCK NO!! I'M NOT IN A GOOD MOOD, I DON'T WANT TO HELP YOU PICK OUT A FUCKING FACE WASH, BITCH! YOU'VE GOT UGLY ASS SKIN ANYHOW, ONLY GOD AND YOUR GENETICS CAN FIX THAT TRAIN WRECK; SO GO DIES SOMEWHERE, WHORE"
i hate gravite
i hate cancer
i hate aids
i hate condoms
i hate money
i hate liars
i hate people who only want someone for sex
i hate people who take sides
i hate keller
i hate traffic
i hate being dependent
i hate not knowing how to be independent
i hate being poor
i hate working
i hate secretive people
i hate Mel Gibson
i hate that dumb september 11th movie
i hate people who dwell on bad things
i hate people who don't want to take a chance and do something crazy
i hate boring people
but most of all;
i hate myself
survery says.......*THIRD STRIKE* i'm out | | |
| So......i'm totally in like with Justin...he's INCREDIBLE!!! i can't handle it!! and jen gave her seal of approval...which is awesome!! and on the way taking him home from meeting Jennifer we were listening to my iPod and he put on this song...and i said, wow, how totally relevant!! And he agreed, and we listened to it a few times....soo!! i really really like him......the song is called I Love You by Martina McBride...but i'm going to say that the 'love' word is a bit strong and quick, but i really do like him alot!! anywho...pay close attention to the first stanza and first chorus:
Martina McBride - I Love You Lyrics
The sun is shinin' everyday
Clouds never get in the way for you and me
I've known you just a week or two
But baby I'm so into you
Can hardly breathe
Chorus 1:
And I'm in so totally
Wrapped up emotionally
Attracted so physically
Actin' so recklessly
I need you so desperately
Sure as the sky is blue
Baby, I love you, I love you
I never knew that I could feel like this
Can hardly wait till our next kiss
You're so cool
If I'm dreaming please don't wake me up
Cause baby I can't get enough
Of what you do
Chorus 2:
And I'm in so electrically
Charged up kinetically
Actin' erratically
Need you fanatically
You get to me magically
Sure as the sky is blue
Baby, I love you
Bridge:
I can't believe that this is real,
the way I feel
Baby I'm gone head over heals
And I'm in so totally
Wrapped up emotionally
Attracted so physically
Actin' so recklessly
I need you so desperately
Sure as the sky is blue
(Yeah)
And I'm in so electrically
Charged up kinetically
Actin' eratically
Need you fanatically
You get to me magically
Sure as the sky is blue
Baby, I love you
Baby, I love you
Do you love me too
Baby, I love you | | |
| WOW.....have i had a week!! i think i might be on the cusp of a really great relationship!!! it's SUCH a refreshing feeling....okay...shift gears...reverse.....here we go!!!
so...i've been talking to this guy named Justin for awhile on myspace (awhile is like january..) anywho we've been hanging out alot lately...and i've been off work for almost an entire week...and i think i've stayed at my house like 2 of those nights...no joke. And y'all will be proud of the fact that we DIDN"T have sex on the first date...which is 'prudish' in the gay world i'm told...anywho...now, the third date is a second story....haha! ANYWHO...he hasn't had the best past or the best past with men...but he's really adorable and has a WONDERFUL personality...and he has that something in him that i can't put my finger on, that je ne sais quoi. And, since i'm kinda psychically intuitive...rewind to my sophomore year in HS when i dabbled in Wicca and tarot cards...i was kick ass at it too...anywho, i'm really good at judging people just from looking in their eyes...anywho... he's been in jail, and had some really bad times with his parents, he's not to stable, and he's had an awful time with his ex's; but there is something there in his heart that drives me INSANE!! I can't describe it, but i can feel it raise the hair on the back of my neck when he looks at me; my skin crawls, my palms moisten, and my heart skips a beat...it's corny i know...but hey, i'm a dork like that...and that's what i've been wanting in a guy...granted i've had my share of bad pasts, HELLO! jordan/adrian...but neither of them gave me that adreneline rush that i get from Justin...and i'm completely addicted to it...SO much so that I've been paying for everything....
wait....read that again....
yes, me...selfish, ungrateful, cheap, and partially anorexic NICK BERKLEY has been paying for everything, every date...every movie...every shopping trip...all the gas to provide for that...and the REALLY REALLY REALLY scary thought is that i've never been happier spending money.....I KNOW!! right?? how wierd...i mean that Yves Sainte Laurent shirt that i bought in Paris didn't give me as much pleasure as when we drove through McDonalds (okay, so it's not PF Chang's everymeal...but to recoupe...a few nights before that we went to a really nice seafood restaurant...and the waitress complimented us, and his hair.....) WHICH!!! OMG! i was soo jealous...i couldn't take it....i really really tried hard on my hair that night too...UGH! oh well...he's cute beyond words.....SO! i guess it's stated that i have a new crush...and i've been kinda sickeningly happy lately...i mean, it's kinda getting on my nerves.....like when i thought about him as i was putting make-up on a co-worker today and i dropped my little pop sickle stick and started laughing and came up from the ground with tears in my eyes....no, good ones...........it's awful! but i love it
OOOOOOH!!! and friggin mother of cows...i had 'fall school' today for Origins...and LEMME tell you; I have NEVER felt SOOO feminine in my life...and usually i'm kinda girly or whatever...but this was like extreme...so much so that i wanted to go home eat fried food, sit with a pair of briefs on and no shirt and scratch my non-existant jock itch.....THAT's how girly i felt...omg...it was revolting...i had my had facialed SOOO friggin many times today...i think it was like 4 times PER hand...and scrubbed...and lotioned...and massaged...and make-up'd...and then cleansed.................
UGH...okay...i'm going to go to bed...cuz i'm exhausted and got up at like 630 this morning....it's 150 now...wow...anywho...going to 'recover' from the day...
oh...and y'all peeps...need to come buy from me...we've got some great things going on at Origins...i give massages and facials now...and
it's good to be well (catch phrase....) | | |
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yea though we ventured
through the valley of the stars
you in all you're jewellery
and my bleeding heart
who couldn't be together
and who couldn't be apart
we should've jumped out
of that airplane after all
flying skywards overhead
it wasn't hard to fall
and i had so many crashes
that i couldn't feel at all
and it feels like i'm seventeen again
feels like i'm seventeen again
hey hey
i'm a million miles away
funny how it seems like yesterday
all those fake celebrities
and all those vicious queens
all the stupid papers
and the stupid magazines
sweet dreams are made of anything
that gets you in the scene
and it feels like i'm seventeen again
and it feels like i'm seventeen again
this song expresses how i feel...and it's a WONDERFUL Eurythmics song...who i secretly admire very much and have a passionate love affair with.......this song is a menagerie of solice, sadness, happiness, and feeling alive, and it's beautiful in the fact that all of it works together and makes us who we are...it's a great message and explains alot about me....
i'm moody...yes...that is NO exaggeration, i know it, you know it, we all know it...however....gimme a day and i'm over it, I might sounds awful, but gimme a day and i'm back to me. There is no difference between us, we're all here for a reason, we're of the same blood, and most of all, we're all loved by the big Man upstairs, no matter whom we may believe he or she to be.
i had a wonderful weekend...i miss houston! i love jen! adrian is awesome...and i guess that's it....oh, yeah, i'm still talking to sheldon...he's adorable!
lata! | | |
| zippity do da, zippity day!
my, oh my! what a wonderful day!!!
zippity do da, zippity DAY!!!
How could anyone not want it this way??!!!!! | | |
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